'The Communion Letter' Farewell, Spring 1991;
Vol. 3, No.1. © 1991, Wilson and Neff, Inc.
This is the last issue of The Communion Letter. We have run
it for two years, and have had a wonderful time doing so. But
we never intended to continue indefinitely. Like the related books
and the Communion groups, it had a definite and finite purpose.
For the present, that purpose has been fulfilled Everybody whose
subscription still has issues to run will be sent a cash refund
for the balance. The letter ends its run in a state of excellent
financial health and with a robust subscription list, so there
will be no delay in returning money.
The letter has been a tremendous
success from the very first issue, and I would like to thank everybody
who subscribed. Because we had so many more subscribers than expected,
back issues are available only in limited quantities.
Now I would like to address the question of why I have terminated
the letter. The reason is that I do not feel that it is productive
to deal with the visitor question any further publicly until there
is something more definite known. Should events warrant, I will
send out periodic communications, but they will he in letter format,
will be free, and will be sent to everybody who has written me.
The presence of UFO's, at least,
has already been proven. The problem is not one of whether or
not they exist, but rather, what they are.
I view the continued refusal of
the scientific community to address the issue as slightly daft,
but I understand it very well. I have gained the friendship of
numerous scientists and some government officials who are certain
that our observations and experiences represent a genuine unknown.
To a man, however, they are afraid to address it openly because
of their fear of public destruction in the press. They are horrified
at the idea of being identified with the UFO community, whom they
regard as a kooky backwater plagued by the fuzzy thinking of losers
with poor academic credentials, who are motivated by superstition
and insane jealousies.
The press and the UFO community
stand together against further progress in the field. Until organizations
like MUFON and CUFOS disintegrate or become discredited, and the
press is allowed to discover that there are people with strong
and respected credentials working on the subject, further progress
is unlikely.
Before I sign off, I would like
to address a few questions that have been bothering me. The first
is that of the Communion groups. Because of these groups, I was
falsely accused of being a cult leader. In fact, the groups were
operating as an alternative to a very nasty little cult run by
people so startlingly ignorant of what they are doing that they
do not even understand that they are brainwashing their victims.
During the course of a defamation
suit I lodged against a particularly harsh critic, large numbers
of his research papers were transmitted to me. I was disgusted
to discover that no bona fide members of Communion groups had
been extensively interviewed by this man. Instead, his primary
source of information was the amateur hypnotists I had formed
the Communion groups to fight!
I was not attacked because there
was any legitimate reason to do so. I was attacked because I was
a large, publicly visible target and could thus afford my attackers
more publicity.
The Communion groups existed for
two reasons: first, to provide a social forum free of charge to
interested parties; second, to offer an alternative source of
support where one did not need to by hypnotized, and where open-minded
questioning replaced the looney certitudes offered by UFO fanatics.
I even went so far as to require the group leaders to sign forms
stating that they would not charge money, and that they would
maintain the integrity of the question in their meetings.
I found it quite shocking that groups
formed to combat a cult would themselves he identified as cultic.
But the media leaped to the breach, hungry as it always is to
spread the lie, and I became identified on national television
as a cult leader similar to Jim Jones. Only when the young man
who had made this accusation stated in publicly available court
papers that he did not really believe it, did I drop my suit against
him. Because of the notoriety, members of UFO cults and reporters
began to try to invade the Communion groups. For this reason,
they were canceled. Because of this, witnesses wishing social
contact with others like themselves must he denied the healthy
alternative of the Communion groups. All that remains available
is the UFO junk, with the attendant risk of being made into a
hypnotized zombie.
I would like now to move onto other
subjects. Since this is my final statement on such matters, I
would like to deny a few rumors. The fact that I am not denying
all rumors does not mean that those I ignore are true. They are
simply too stupid to be worthy of comment.
* I am not a government agent. There is some truth to the allegations that I have contact within the U.S. military and the government. I will not deny this. But all of my activities are pointed in one direction: disclosure.
* I am not a skinflint. The Communion Foundation has given away a lot of money, and I have tried hard to be financially generous in every way possible, and possess the records to prove it. Even Budd Hopkins has been generously treated, and I have the canceled checks to prove this.*
* The white paper Mr. Hopkins allegedly produced about me is a tissue of intentional distortions designed to portray me in a falsely negative light. But his apparent sending of this paper to dozens of UFO investigators, in an effort to discredit me, was effective. Such people are eager to believe negative information about those more successful than they. Jealousy is an illness, and it is highly contagious, and the UFO community is sick to death with it.
* There exist no legitimate audio tapes of me admitting to being an alien, a government agent, a sexual pervert, or the camp-follower of little grey men from Zeta Reticuli. I have never said anything of the kind. These tapes are no doubt the creations of people who have been playing games in a sound room. If you want to know what I think, read my books.
Now that I have finished with that, I would like to tell you,
as clearly as I can, my present thinking on the subject of visitors
and related phenomena.
First, I am certain that we are
not dealing with alien encounters as defined by the UFO community.
This is a deeper and more subtle business. The Communion Foundation
recorded over three thousand narratives of experience out of the
nearly forty thousand I have so far received. The documented ones
were chosen simply on the basis of the fullness of the narrative,
not on its content. Only a very few of these spontaneously described
anything remotely resembling the so-called typical abduction
experience that has been concocted by the UFO community.
And these, for the most part, were from people who had already
been exposed to UFO literature. To have a typical abduction
encounter, you must almost certainly he first he exposed
to UFO stories and literature and/or he hypnotized by an expert
who has himself been exposed to, or advocates, this belief system.
Thus, I consider hypnosis to be
almost worthless, except in cases where it is administered by
a medical professional to a relatively uncorrupted individual.
Hypnotism by UFO experts and the psychologists who support them
does not open the door to truth. It opens the door to fantasies
based on the modern folklore of the alien and the flying saucer
and it opens the door to fear.
Most people who have had the visitor
experience are not afraid; they are not angry. They are perplexed.
We carefully researched some of
the most spectacular UFO claims, and found many of them to he
essentially fallacious. For example, the stories about alien bases
hidden under the Archeluta Mesa in New Mexico probably derive
from twisted tellings of the ghost stories and creation myths
of the Jacarilla Apaches whose reservation surrounds the mesa.
Most of the stories about crashed
flying saucers are also unsubstantiated. Only one, the Roswell
incident, stands out as demonstrably strange. I was able to do
some research into this affair which must remain confidential,
but it convinced me that the Air Force obtained, without a doubt,
some material from the desert north of Roswell, New Mexico, that
it could not explain at the time. It would be interesting to see
if modern analysis might reveal more about this material. At the
time, an elaborate cover-up was instituted to conceal the fact
that the Air Force did not know what it had. Since the cover-up
was never abandoned, it must still be in place. I can assert with
the certainty of direct personal experience that elements of that
very complex social organism known as the U.S. government possess
some extremely strange information at the very least
which is being methodically concealed not only from the public,
but from the Congress as well.
To keep these secrets, elements
of the U.S., British, Australian and Brazilian governments have
all at times taken extraordinary measures. U.S. government agencies
appear to have engaged in the illegal propagandizing of the American
people by spreading so-called disinformation about
this subject. From the beginning, the agencies involved seem to
have been willing to blatantly break the law in their effort to
protect the secrets. They have almost certainly failed to provide
Congress with information it deserves under the law.
Everything I have ever done in regard
to the government has been directed toward the goal of disclosure.
But this is a sensitive, complicated situation, and it isn't going
to he changed overnight. It has come about because the people
within the government who are holding the secrets ill understand
the nature of the issues involved. They think that they are hiding
the fact that eerie aliens are present, that these supposed aliens
engage in certain disturbing and enigmatic activities, and that
they cannot be controlled in any way.
This is not a true impression of
the situation. If the secret intelligence agencies understood
what they were dealing with, they would see that the secrecy is
meaningless.
In my three books about the visitor
experience, I tried to maintain the position which I still hold
today, and which is expressed in large type in the frontispiece
of Communion:
Instead of shunning the darkness, we can face straight into it with an open mind. 'When we do that, the unknown changes. Fearful things become understandable and a truth is suggested: the enigmatic presence of the human mind winks back from the dark.
Unfortunately, this position did not please the UFO believers
or the media. I do not accept most UFO doctrine, at least not
as it is expressed by American believers. The media is even worse.
They spent three years trying to cast me as a self-proclaimed
alien abductee." Almost without exception, their approach
to what I was trying to communicate was beyond the stupid: it
was intentionally irresponsible. They knew my position but chose
to distort it in the interest of sensationalism.
There is a very simple reason that
we have made so little progress understanding UFOs and the visitors.
We are a world in the process of going blind: We are blind to
the existence of the soul, and thus also to the ancient and immensely
conscious world from which it emerges.
Ironically, if aliens are here,
we are not going to find them in the sky. Our own minds are where
we will find them, for the mind is the door to their world
a more real, more true, more alive world than ours.
Now I would like to approach, in an oblique manner, some ideas
about the visitor experience, its origins and its nature.
First, it is a natural phenomenon.
The profound truth of this statement cannot be overemphasized.
The moment you come face to face with the visitors, you cannot
fail to be struck by the fact that they are not highly contrived
technological presences, but simple, natural creatures
almost naked. Witnesses who have seen them up close and remembered
the encounter will often say things like, I thought he was
a little animal at first, or it felt like part of
me. The same witness might say both things, and be right
both times. The visitors are beings, natural objects, living things
at once separate from us, yet part of us and they
are also a message. I would like now to address the content of
the message, insofar as I can understand it.
Our cultures have, as the ages have
progressed, desensitized us both to the soul and to our animal
nature. They have made us more and more viewers and less and less
doers. About two thousand years ago we began watching plays that
demonstrated the acts of the Gods. The trouble was, these were
inner dramas, and externalizing them was a mistake.
When religion ceased to be the format
for relationships between man and nature and became a means of
deifying our internal yearnings and conflicts, we began the long
process of going soul-blind.
Even so, there is a sense of rightness
to our present situation. We are failing in our attempt to subjugate
nature and that is as it should be. Despite all the trouble
that we are to see, we will gain from this misadventure we call
civilized life.
Our whole moral order is flawed.
We do not understand the requirements of the predator not
because we are prey, but for the opposite reason: we are predators
ourselves, which is the real motive for so much of the destruction
and unbalanced behavior that rocks our lives. We cannot accept
what we are.
Because we have no faith in ourselves,
we have no faith in nature, and we cannot bear the discipline
of trusting the dark. Faith is beyond religion. It has to do with
loving one's own sinews and secrets. To do this one must face
the fact that, inside ourselves, we are not alone. Every dark
thing that any human being has ever done involves us all. It is
terribly hard to face this. One must not forget that all the good
in humanity is there too, shining in the murk of our souls.
When I realized that the awful look
I kept seeing in the eyes of the visitors actually reflected the
terror of this situation, I understood that they were part of
us. I was seeing the reflection of my own soul.
When we look at the visitors, we
look at ourselves. The lights in the sky at once deceive and inform:
they suggest the presence of aliens; they portend the coming of
man. For man has not yet been born. Earth is fat with flesh: she
is aching for the days of harvest. Our aim, both collectively
and individually, is to carry back into our timeless home a clear
and objective impression of what we found here. We are the voyagers,
our bodies and brains are the spaceship.
But do not imagine that our home
is figurative or imaginary. The lair of the visitors is real.
I have gone deep into it, found that is has walls and trees and
lights. You can lie down with them; indeed, you can even walk
in places where new forms of man are being invented.
When I first noticed the visitors,
I would have encounters. Then these encounters focused into a
relationship. The visitors accepted the role I laid out for them
and became pilots for me in the night. They took me into the shoals
of fear, and then left me to founder. Instead I struggled, at
least at first. I have learned since that the point is not to
subjugate fear, but to use it as a window into self-understanding.
Taste your fear, taste your self. Now I see them as a higher level
of mind, eager to spread transformative potential in our foundering
societies. We have burdened our concept of the soul with myth
and folklore, have made the dramas of the gods into entertainments.
Now it is time to recover the soul's ancient potency, and begin
to form a new relationship with the numinous. We must abandon
myth, abandon folklore, abandon culture, abandon all the engines
of deceit by which we have concealed our real natures from ourselves.
The only way to proceed is to accept that the soul has an objective
reality and at the present moment we haven't got
the faintest idea what that means.
I know what interests the visitors.
It is not love and light; the heaving of desperate minds draws
them. The reason that they first began to be visible on a large-scale
basis alter World War II had to do with the tremendous shocks
that assailed us then. We began to live in daily terror of the
atomic bomb. Simultaneously we discovered that human beings were
capable of anything: men had engineered the Holocaust, and men
could most certainly drop the bomb.
It was no accident that the visitors
appeared in the middle of America's secret weapons testing areas
and close by the world's only operational atomic bomber wing in
1947: this was where our desperation pointed them, this was the
nexus of fear.
But what are they? I cannot answer
that question directly. I know what they are, and yet... I don't.
To understand why this would be so, it is necessary to refer to
the indeterminate laws that govern the movement and nature of
electrons and to simultaneously consider the actual, physical
nature of thought.
Thought is an electronic event organized
within the cells of a brain and mediated by their chemical condition.
Since thought consists of electrons, it is in its essence as indeterminate
as they are. And so are the visitors. It is perfectly possible
that they are from the future, from within us and from another
world all at once.
This seems like a hopeless contradiction,
a piece of intellectual posturing worthy only to be swept away
by hardheaded engineers. But it's not. Unless one thinks indeterminately
about the visitors, one cannot think about them usefully and correctly.
I have gone deep into their world.
The more subtle my understanding of them has become, the richer
my relationship. I will go on, as deep as I can, daring everything.
I will stop at nothing, go into every dark place, keep on until
my breath is gone. Thank you for traveling with me a little while.
Will we meet again?
'The Communion Letter' Cover Letter, Spring
1991
Vol. 3, No.1. © 1991, Wilson and Neff, Inc.
Dear Reader:
I would like to thank you for
your patronage of the Communion Letter. Your subscription ends
with this issue, and we are not taking new subscriptions or renewals.
A list of available back issues is printed on the reverse of this
letter for those who may he interested in collecting.
I had always intended to run the
newsletter about two years, and that amount of time has now passed.
During this period the Communion Letter has gained a large circulation
and, I believe, published some remarkable articles.
But all good things must come to
an end. I am not a UFO researcher and do not wish to endure the
continued media attack that is associated with being involved
in this field. In addition, the so-called UFO-ologists
are probably the cruelest, nastiest and craziest people I have
ever encountered. Their interpretation of the visitor experience
is rubbish from beginning to end. The abduction reports
that they generate are not real. They are artifacts of hypnosis
and cultural conditioning.
What we are experiencing is a perceptual
anomaly that is sufficiently ambiguous and intense that it demands
explanation. It is something that human beings have been experiencing
for a long time. It is the cause of religion, of mythology, of
folklore. Presently it is the cause of the alien abduction
belief.
What is *really* behind our experiences?
We are. This is a human thing. However, I would also say that
it indicates that we and our world are vastly different,
and far more strange, than we have ever dreamed, or dared imagine.
With that I leave you.
Whitley Strieber
* A note from BeyondCommunion.com: Budd Hopkins later wrote in an open letter published in the Sept 1991 issue of MUFON UFO Journal that of two checks he received from Whitley Strieber, one was in payment for one of Hopkins' artworks, and one was a loan. Hopkins concludes the open letter by noting that “despite the attacks so many have made on [Whitley's] truthfulness, I believe he has undergone harrowing UFO abduction experiences, and is not a deliberate self-aware liar. ... I believe that, like thousands of others, he has suffered profoundly at the hands of UFO occupants, and is perhaps coping less well than many (facts which may help explain his odd and misplaced fury at UFO investigators). Despite his subsequent behavior towards me and many dedicated fellow researchers, it is impossible not to feel compassion for him. His life and mine were intimately entangled for nearly a year as I helped him and his family begin the painful healing process of discovery and integration of their traumatic encounters. It has always been a matter of personal satisfaction that Whitley inscribed his book to me with these words: 'You saved my life.'”